rejection vs releasing
recently I went through my facebook page to delete old posts. I had no idea it would be so emotional. wow! as I deleted posts for the last couple of years, it felt like browsing through my life. some posts made me laugh, and some made me sad.
as I scrolled through my posts and saw messages from people I no longer have connections with, that made me sad. I miss them. even though I know we are not in vibrational alignment I still miss them. then comes the wondering… since I am missing them does that mean I should reach out and try to reconnect? well as soon as I use the word should I know it is not coming from the right place. It is coming from that rejection feeling. that part of us that really wants everyone to like us. even though we may have been the one to let go of the connection, it still feels like rejection, and it still hurts.
I had to take a step back and replay events and really tune into myself to see if I wanted the connection or I just wanted to feel better about being rejected or doing the rejecting. I realize that I am using the wrong word. rejection has a strong negative energy. the word release feels better. we both released an energy of a connection that did not feel right anymore. the energy of release feels less like a closed slammed locked door than the energy of rejection. release feels like it was done for the benefit of both parties. rejection feels one-sided.
so, as I go forward anytime I disconnect from someone or they disconnect from me, I will not take it personal or as a rejection. But as a release for both of us. releasing energies that are no longer working creates space for other energies that do work. so to everyone who has released me and to those I have released. THANK YOU!
spring fever
as I headed out for a nice tromp through my pastures last night, I took a moment to enjoy the beauty. trees looking green and gorgeous, grass growing lush after the rain, and the lovely smells of mother earth. then a voice popped in and said, you may want to go count your bulls. OK! as I rounded the corner of the shed, my horse was on the other side and gave me a sideways look that said “do not catch me, I HATE chasing bulls” then I knew….. and I heard Grumpy Frank mooing as he lumbered down the pasture out of sight. “MOO~ladies I am here” “MOO~ladies where are you??” “Moo~quick before I get caught.” MOOOOOOOO freeeedom” and yes there was a cow who was teasing poor Frank earlier. flirting and looking all pretty on the other side of the fence. But…. he did not get any action in. I stomped back to the house, after sending my horse a reassuring vibe, I do not like chasing bulls any more than he does. My horse and I have an understanding. We leave the bull chasing to others. so, I stomped in and told my husband that HIS bull was out again!! he went out got on the Quad (an in the mood bull, being thwarted in his desires can be a little dangerous for horse and rider) so quad it is! when Hubby went out the cow was nowhere to be seen (what a tease) and when Frank heard that Quad he decided to jump a fence, well Frank is not nearly as athletic as he thinks he is. this is the bull who after about 3 weeks of hanging with the cows and doing his thing, quits and pouts in a far corner for another couple of weeks. probably wears himself out and has to go for some alone time. so in his attempt to sail over a fence in the style of a Spruce meadows jumper, he flattened 4 posts and made a hole big enough for a truck to drive through. I am pretty sure there was some colorful words said by my husband towards Frank regarding the whole fact that now there is MORE fencing to do. after a merry chase the long way around the pasture Frank is in and his pen is now steel panels. although I am sure he is plotting his next escape. I have been trying to tell him, only one more week. friends are coming Saturday to round up, and process the calves, then the bulls get turned out. meanwhile while all this is going on the other 2 bulls( baby Frank and Timothy~munchkins named the bulls) are fighting each other and being oblivious. I did see them conferencing with grumpy Frank and getting the tales of his exploits. he is sequestered now, they have to chat through the fence. I am hoping that Frank is tired and stays in while Hubby is at work. if he gets out now he gets to stay out until this evening. I tried chasing him in last year when he was making his break out, and NO THANKS!!! he used to be called friendly Frank, got changed. and that is when my munchkins learned that some words are only used for Bull chasing. ooops!! I did get my walk in after~quite lovely. before I went to bed I saw that Annabelle my DIVA longhorn was out too. she does not believe in limits or boundaries, at least she was in a pasture and not the yard, so we left her. she can put herself back in. probably did it to taunt Grumpy Frank. hee hee!! that did make me smile.
hugs & happiness
Forgiveness

i was reading an article today about Karma and forgiveness. the article was talking about how we attract the same situations over and over in different disguises until we “get” the lesson. so, as I was thinking about forgiveness, and feeling good that i have worked on forgiving others. then i realized what about forgiving myself? i attracted all the situations, yes ALL of them. even the really ugly ones. Have I forgiven myself? I attracted them to learn, and learn I did! but have i ever forgiven myself? it is easy to blame others for what happens to us, but they were just doing as we asked the Universe to teach us. it is easy to get into victim mode, and even to martyr mode where we forgive whomever has abused, raped or in any way hurt us. No, i decided it is time to forgive myself. so, i wrote a long listof things I forgive myself for. I FORGAVE MYSELF! and now i feel wonderful. one of my goals is to be in a place of inner peace in my life so that no matter what situation arises, i am able to deal with it from a place of love rather than any negative emotions. I am feeling I made a huge step towards that goal by forgiving me, and working on ALWAYS honouring my divinity. go me!! i empowered myself huge today! ~wahoo~ the image above is forgiveness crop circle code from Janosh art.
Goddess Power
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