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September Intentions.

Posted by Creative Goddess on August 31, 2010 in flow of life, lessons with No Comments

September has the energy of new beginnings in my world. the conditioning of all those years of starting a fresh school year is the reason. so, last year I tried an experiment. I set an intention in September to see how it played out. the intention that I set was to follow my own inner guidance no matter what. it took me on some interesting journeys, created a lot of changes in a good way. it was also very challenging at times. I found myself in situations where my inner guidance was in conflict with my not wanting to create waves and keeping peace with people or to keep them happy by bending to what they wanted. unfortunately, I was giving my power away to keep the peace. when that happens it is always a temporary peace.

one of the biggest challenges I faced was in a group that I started. it was a private group, invite by invitation only because we had a purpose behind getting together. We all met on a forum and the energies there went a bit awry so we decided to form our own group. we kept it private because the members were practicing their intuition and psychic skills and not all were ready to be open with their talents. my philosophy has always been everyone gets a chance. so I invited anyone and everyone who had belonged to the other forum. even those my intuition said may not be the best idea, but everyone gets a chance. turned out that others involved in the group did not have the same philosophy and there was a lot of discussion about who gets to join and who does not. I had no idea that was going on behind the scenes. when I did find out, I realized pretty quickly that my intention for the group was already being sabotaged. was it my group or not. the answer~not.

the players in the behind the scenes deciding who gets to be involved and who does not must have had a falling out. because then I was told by one of them what was going on and it was pointed out to me how the other one was posting messages that did not follow the guidelines of the group which was to be positive and respectful in their interactions.

I realized that all groups have their growing pains before the cohesion takes place. so, I tried my best to mediate and understand and answer all the e-mails I was getting from people regarding the group. it became time and energy intensive. my husband got vented to a lot.

so, back to the two players in this scenario that may have had a falling out. I had to remind the one of the guidelines of the group which was to be respectful in their interactions, even of others who are not part of the group. did NOT go over well. this person was one of the ones that my guidance said would cause me issues. so I was not surprised. what did surprise me was the reaction of the other person. She seemed bent on getting the one to leave the group, but I was to be the one to do that. I received every e-mail that was sent to her by the other one and who knows if editing took place or not. Considering the other one thought they were good friends this was not exactly nice. it also came to light that the whole reason these two decided they were in charge of deciding who got to be in the group and who did not was because there was another person that they both did not like and it was all to scheme to keep her out of the loop about our group so that she could not join. the joke on them is that she knew about it all along and chose not to join. smart idea on her part.

so, I got all caught up in this mess, it was stressful, childish and energy-sucking. drama, drama, drama and even on my birthday in August. it was after the dust settled on this that I created the intention that I would follow my inner guidance no matter what. I do not regret what happened, I still believe that everyone gets a chance. so what did happen? well when the dust sort of settled on that~took a while. the one person left the group. the other one that had sent me all the e-mails etc… who I really thought was in alignment with me and a good friend turned out not to be later. by then I was not surprised. I dissolved the group a few months later. I could not handle all the behind the scenes stuff. the telling me that this person said this or did this and now the other person did not want to be part of the group. etc…. I was also a little side swiped by the e-mails that I got from others who did not know the details of what really happened who sent me lengthy e-mails judging my decisions. I chose to thank them very much, but I made my decisions based on my heart and what was best for the group and myself as the facilitator. the only person who knows all the details of what really went on is my husband. his advice was actually the best.

it was following my inner guidance that I dissolved the group. the reaction I got was interesting too. I was told by the one who was involved in all the drama ( that I thought was in alignment with me) that it was against my vibe to end the group. I am not even sure what that means. I told her that she should start her own group, that I she would be a way better facilitator that myself. since drama is not something I choose to create or participate in.

one of the unfortunate things is that I had to end my connections with a lot of the people involved in this group simply because I was feeling raw about the whole situation and a little hurt that not one of the members asked me if I was OK, or expressed any concern over what may be going on with me as to why I chose to let go of the group, except my close friends who were in on my decision. I think everyone who was involved in that group is a fabulous worthwhile and amazing person. but I had to follow my own inner guidance and do what was best for me. I take things to heart too much, and trying to soothe ruffled egos and peace keep is not something I love to do. In small doses yes. not in large ones. It was such a relief to me to be done with it. it was a huge lesson learned, and choosing to follow my inner guidance no matter what was the greatest gift I received out of all of it.

hugs to all

Shannon

Hypnotherapy

Posted by Creative Goddess on August 19, 2010 in flow of life, positive thoughts, possibilities with No Comments

I took a free online hypnotherapy course as research for the masters thesis I am working on. it was amazing. a little intense, I had 28 days to complete 7 lessons which involved watching 2 hours of video for each lesson. adding that to my regularly scheduled activities was a bit tricky. I loved it though, which absolutely made it easier to do. remember in grade 8 when we were taught about advertising and how it affects our subconscious to encourage buying the products? I loved that class. obviously, since I am a long way from being thirteen and still clearly remember. hee hee. learning hypnotherapy is learning how the mind works. how information is taken in, sorted and then processed. completely intrigues me. taking the basic class also helped me understand how my gift of connecting to energies works. very cool!!!

I have signed up for the advanced course. wahoo! for payment plans. this one is far from free. I love what I am learning. so intriguing. one of the most important things I have learned is the importance of sleep for the mind to process and let go of information. I know this is going to become one of my focuses. I adore sleeping, I adore dreaming, and I have always known in my soul the importance of both. to be able to help others get a better night sleep and teach them dream therapy, so they can interpret their own dreams, excites me!

past life regressions are also on the agenda. very, very cool. if you have had a session with me you know that I am completely fascinated by that too. right now clients will shape shift, into other personalities to give me a glimpse of their past lives. I will be able to regress clients so they can observe their own past lives. I am very excited by this too.

for all those of you that are a little freaked out by being hypnotized, it is completely like a day dream. this type of hypnotherapy is different than the stage hypnosis, although I may learn that too. hee hee. the hypnotizing that I am interested in is to facilitate healing. having experienced first hand the wonderful effects of hypnotherapy I am very excited to be able to offer these services soon!!!

we have all experiences hypnosis, while driving, at the movies, even reading a book where you get so involved in the story that you tune out everything else. wouldn’t it be wonderful to use that to release some blocks in your energy and release some of the energies that are weighing you down? wahoo!! I will keep you posted. sleep and dream therapy will be first on my list of offerings for adults and children.

as the Goddess card today spoke of Aeracura: “so have patience with yourself and the process, and do not give up. In many ways, you are like a flower bud who is ripe and ready to open and grow. Don’t try to rush this process, as it’s part of your beautiful path. Enjoy learning new knowledge and skills. Take your time to gather new ideas. ”

I am so very excited by all the possibilities. have a wonderful day. hugs. Shannon

Horses~dangers and pleasures

Posted by Creative Goddess on August 17, 2010 in flow of life, lessons, ranch life with 4 Comments

we are on the lookout for another horse. we have kids getting ready to ride a lot, and they both want to ride my horse. Duke. they are smart kids, because he is the best horse.

so, at swimming lessons we heard about a horse that was being re-homed because the girl did not have time to ride him. he is gentle, has been used in gymkana. 17 years old and a gelding. sounds really good.

the person who was coming to get him, changed their mind, now the horse was available again. friends of ours were going to be in the area and look at him, and let us know. they got busy and did not make it over there. so we went ourselves. well, he was very quiet, needed a big hoof trim, his feet and neck showed signs of founder, which is Ok. we are looking for a kids horse that will not work real hard so we can live with a little founder, after all the horse is free.

so, we load him up and take him home. my husband spent a lot of time trimming hooves, and Joe ( the horse) was not quite as gentle as we had been told. well, he is at a new place, with new people, and it did start raining so we will see in the next few days.

I went out the next morning to see how Joe was feeling and perhaps let him out with our 5 horses. our concern was that his feet not hurt him too much so he can run away if they picked on him a bit too much as they establish the pecking order. ( haha on us) as I went to check on Joe, I noticed that that quiet friendly demeanor was somewhat missing. he was prancing and arrogant. really??? I was not at all comfortable with this horse, and did not let my kids anywhere near him. my horses came around and they all met over the fence. Lots of squealing going on, which is the way of horses. My 5 then took off running away. ( 2 geldings and 3 mares)

I thought well Joe feels great, I will let him out, I did and got the hell out of the way, because this horse is a bit aggressive. MY 5 horses went to the furthest corner that they could get and hid in the bushes for a whole day. I had to go to swimming lessons and my plan was for them all to meet, mingle and establish who is the boss ( Bambi- my husbands rope horse) while we were away. did not happen. we had to go get my herd to mingle with Joe. they were smarter than us.

Joe is completely aggressive, thinks he is a stud and tried to take over the herd in a not nice way. he hunted the mares. my geldings had to be on their guard to protect the ladies. my horses did not get any rest. I kept an eye on the situation for a day or so. then we had a birthday party and part of the fun is loading up in the truck and looking at the cows, highland steer, Llama, and bulls. then we go and pet the horses and hand out apple treats and enjoy a lot of love. well, our horses were too stressed to visit us for apple treats. ( that has never happened) my husband walked into the herd with the bag to coax them to the kids waiting in the back of the truck to enjoy horsey love. as my horses were distracted by the bag of treats, Joe took full advantage and backed aggressively into the herd to kick and do damage, and yes my husband was standing right in the middle. NOT GOOD!!!

so, after the party ended and I could go spend some time out with the horses, I did. what I observed and felt did not sit right with me. my horses are very gentle and loving. the come up for petting even though they are keeping a wary eye out for a halter. ( I do hide it in my jacket) luckily they think I have gained weight, not hiding the halters. hee hee. as I stood out there one of my paint mares Sienna, really wanted to come for some love, but she couldn’t. she had to stay with her herd for protection. then I observed my other paint mare wanting to roll and get rid of some itches. she was having a hard time finding a place. took her an hour and as she was rolling Joe was trying to get to her. what he was planning to do to her while she was down, I am not sure, but I do know that it was not good. My old guy had to protect her. I have had him for 17 years, and we have been on a lot of adventures and around a lot of horses together, and I have never seen him have to do this. he was constantly on guard to protect his herd. as soon as I saw that, I sent my husband out to separate Joe. he is just too dangerous to my horses and to us. after Joe was removed from them, I did go find my herd and gave them treats and investigated their damages. a lot of bruises from being kicked. that broke my heart. they were back to their friendly give me love and apple treats selves, although they were back to being in the furthest corner away from Joe.

the horse we have here is not a gentle kids horse. he is aggressive,and thinks he is a stud and that makes him dangerous. I called the lady that I got Joe from. she had no idea that he was like that. the interesting part is how the stories change. now she admits that her daughter could not handle him, and was scared of him. she thought and she is correct that being experienced horse people we would be able to handle Joe. then upon further conversations the people she got Joe from did tell her that you do have to watch him around mares. she did not know what that meant, so disregarded that information. YIKES!!!

at this time I am waiting for her or the people she got Joe from to call me and let me know if they are coming to get him, or if I am selling him at the horse sale on Friday and making a donation to the food bank. after I buy my horses a bag of apple treats to say sorry.

I am happy to have my loving herd back, and hope they are catching up on rest and relaxation. I cannot wait for Joe to leave so we can ride our pretty horses again.

this whole situation has been interesting. I am glad that we met Joe and the family who had him. I am very glad they did not ride Joe around mares and get everyone into a dangerous situation. I am also glad that I was able to let them know the situation. what happens to Joe now, I am not sure.

I do hope that anyone reading this who is thinking of getting a horse for their family, please do your research! get someone you can trust and who understands horses and horse energy to help you. when you have a horse that you connect with, there is nothing like it. also get lessons for whoever it is that wants to ride the horse. lessons will save your life. they are many amazing teachers out there and it is important. horses have a lot of power and energy, if you do not know how they think or cannot connect to them, it could be very dangerous. horses are not big puppy dogs.

so, we shall see how this story ends and hope that everyone involved has learned valuable lessons, including us. whether Joe gets recycled Friday or goes to another place to live in solitude, I do know that it will work out how it is supposed to.

asthma in my 6 yr old.

Posted by Creative Goddess on July 4, 2010 in flow of life, guidance with 2 Comments

I have a son with Asthma. he is six. His asthma is triggered by allergies. fresh cut grass, pollens and dust are some of the known triggers. Anxiety for himself and when my husband is anxious seem to trigger him too. watching your child struggle to breathe is such a helpless feeling. he has an inhaler, and he knows how to use it. having your child need chemicals to breathe is not an easy thing to deal with either. His attacks are not consistent. it varies. he can go months without an attack, and then it happens. we have been to many doctors, homeopaths and natureopaths. bio feedback machines, pretty much anything that may help. it is a struggle for him and us.

I am wishing we stumble upon a miracle cure, a magic fix, or at least some tools to help him control his attacks. my son loves rodeos and bull sales. unfortunately dusty places are one of the triggers. as a parent it is a hard choice, how can I prevent him from doing some of his very favorite things and yet how can I not when it affects his breathing. when he has an attack after one of these outings, his anxiety makes it worse, because he is worried he will not be able to go ever again. we went to a rodeo yesterday. he and his little brother had an amazing day watching the cowboys and cowgirls, playing in a playground with friends and enjoying the sun and the dust. by the end of the day he was getting labored. he did not want to leave. and us feeling like really bad parents because we forgot the inhaler. we did have his allergy medicine, but he did need his inhaler. we came home, he had a shower and had to have his inhaler at regular intervals. this morning he wanted to go to the emergency room. he was feeling better, but if he wants to go, we take him. we feel it lets him have some control over the situation. as he was getting ready to walk out the door, he told me the events he wanted to go in when he is 8 at the rodeo. I smiled and reminded him of some other events that we watched kids in the day before. oh yeah he said, those too. then my husband took him to town. shortly after I got a phone call, they were at Wal Mart. My six year old was feeling way better and did not want to go to the emergency room. I think it was mainly the anxiety that there will be no more rodeos in his future. that would break his heart. he would rather choose not to breathe than not to enjoy a rodeo. we do not go to many. one or two a year and they have to be out door. we are focusing on figuring out tools for him to handle his asthma rather than let it limit his life, although it will. he does not get triggered during sports. he can run or ride his bike all day and he is fine. I wish I knew exactly what to do for him. I wish I could wave a magic wand and make it all go away. this is a huge learning for a ll of us.

then there is that huge fear that he may stop breathing altogether. when he is sick like this he wants his dad. so, although he was tucked in sleeping the night with his dad to keep an eye on him, I was up a few times in the night to make sure he was breathing. as aware as I am that being here in this body at this time is completely each individuals choice. I also know that it is their choice of when they leave. If my son decides that he is done with this plane of existence and chooses to leave this body, I have no choice but to honour that since there is nothing I can do about it. I am completely scared that he will choose that. terrified really. causes me sleepless nights and tears. yes, I am worrying about something that may or may not happen, but it is the helplessness of the situation for me. I know that my son is way smarter than I am. I love the adventure and the wonder that he has brought to our lives. I am completely selfish and want to keep him around to see him grow up and be amazed at how he chooses to live his life.

for anyone with a child who has illness you know what I am writing about. those fears that sneak in as you are laying in bed trying to sleep, when you really want to hold that child as tight as you can and not let them go. the frustrations that you feel that there seems to be no cures, or answers from the doctors. makes you want to scream and yell because they seem to not understand that your child being able to breath is the most important thing in the whole world and they better pull their head out of their ass and make it happen! ( this is why my husband takes my son to the emergency room and not me) the numerous doctor visits that seem to have no results. the months that go by without an attack and then whamo. you struggle to remember the exact events hoping that their will be answers as to what triggered him. I do feel helpless, but not hopeless. He may grow out of this, their may be new developments to aid him in this illness. so, I am going to keep searching for answers and call on all my guidance to aid. harder to do this when I am so completely attached to the outcome, but I will do my best. I have heard of an asthma doctor not too far away from us, I will track him down and see what happens. we will continue on our journey to find tools and answers to make his asthma a minor inconvenience and not a major one. Meanwhile lots of hugs, prayers and enjoying life with my munchkin is on the agenda. living from a place of love and not fear. when those fears trickle in, I will remind myself to trust the universe, and be present in this moment, and give and get hugs.

rejection vs releasing

Posted by Creative Goddess on July 2, 2010 in Intentions, flow of life, lessons with 2 Comments

recently I went through my facebook page to delete old posts. I had no idea it would be so emotional. wow! as I deleted posts for the last couple of years, it felt like browsing through my life. some posts made me laugh, and some made me sad.

as I scrolled through my posts and saw messages from people I no longer have connections with, that made me sad. I miss them. even though I know we are not in vibrational alignment I still miss them. then comes the wondering… since I am missing them does that mean I should reach out and try to reconnect? well as soon as I use the word should I know it is not coming from the right place. It is coming from that rejection feeling. that part of us that really wants everyone to like us. even though we may have been the one to let go of the connection, it still feels like rejection, and it still hurts.

I had to take a step back and replay events and really tune into myself to see if I wanted the connection or I just wanted to feel better about being rejected or doing the rejecting. I realize that I am using the wrong word. rejection has a strong negative energy. the word release feels better. we both released an energy of a connection that did not feel right anymore. the energy of release feels less like a closed slammed locked door than the energy of rejection. release feels like it was done for the benefit of both parties. rejection feels one-sided.

so, as I go forward anytime I disconnect from someone or they disconnect from me, I will not take it personal or as a rejection. But as a release for both of us. releasing energies that are no longer working creates space for other energies that do work. so to everyone who has released me and to those I have released. THANK YOU!