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September Intentions.

Posted by Creative Goddess on August 31, 2010 in flow of life, lessons with No Comments

September has the energy of new beginnings in my world. the conditioning of all those years of starting a fresh school year is the reason. so, last year I tried an experiment. I set an intention in September to see how it played out. the intention that I set was to follow my own inner guidance no matter what. it took me on some interesting journeys, created a lot of changes in a good way. it was also very challenging at times. I found myself in situations where my inner guidance was in conflict with my not wanting to create waves and keeping peace with people or to keep them happy by bending to what they wanted. unfortunately, I was giving my power away to keep the peace. when that happens it is always a temporary peace.

one of the biggest challenges I faced was in a group that I started. it was a private group, invite by invitation only because we had a purpose behind getting together. We all met on a forum and the energies there went a bit awry so we decided to form our own group. we kept it private because the members were practicing their intuition and psychic skills and not all were ready to be open with their talents. my philosophy has always been everyone gets a chance. so I invited anyone and everyone who had belonged to the other forum. even those my intuition said may not be the best idea, but everyone gets a chance. turned out that others involved in the group did not have the same philosophy and there was a lot of discussion about who gets to join and who does not. I had no idea that was going on behind the scenes. when I did find out, I realized pretty quickly that my intention for the group was already being sabotaged. was it my group or not. the answer~not.

the players in the behind the scenes deciding who gets to be involved and who does not must have had a falling out. because then I was told by one of them what was going on and it was pointed out to me how the other one was posting messages that did not follow the guidelines of the group which was to be positive and respectful in their interactions.

I realized that all groups have their growing pains before the cohesion takes place. so, I tried my best to mediate and understand and answer all the e-mails I was getting from people regarding the group. it became time and energy intensive. my husband got vented to a lot.

so, back to the two players in this scenario that may have had a falling out. I had to remind the one of the guidelines of the group which was to be respectful in their interactions, even of others who are not part of the group. did NOT go over well. this person was one of the ones that my guidance said would cause me issues. so I was not surprised. what did surprise me was the reaction of the other person. She seemed bent on getting the one to leave the group, but I was to be the one to do that. I received every e-mail that was sent to her by the other one and who knows if editing took place or not. Considering the other one thought they were good friends this was not exactly nice. it also came to light that the whole reason these two decided they were in charge of deciding who got to be in the group and who did not was because there was another person that they both did not like and it was all to scheme to keep her out of the loop about our group so that she could not join. the joke on them is that she knew about it all along and chose not to join. smart idea on her part.

so, I got all caught up in this mess, it was stressful, childish and energy-sucking. drama, drama, drama and even on my birthday in August. it was after the dust settled on this that I created the intention that I would follow my inner guidance no matter what. I do not regret what happened, I still believe that everyone gets a chance. so what did happen? well when the dust sort of settled on that~took a while. the one person left the group. the other one that had sent me all the e-mails etc… who I really thought was in alignment with me and a good friend turned out not to be later. by then I was not surprised. I dissolved the group a few months later. I could not handle all the behind the scenes stuff. the telling me that this person said this or did this and now the other person did not want to be part of the group. etc…. I was also a little side swiped by the e-mails that I got from others who did not know the details of what really happened who sent me lengthy e-mails judging my decisions. I chose to thank them very much, but I made my decisions based on my heart and what was best for the group and myself as the facilitator. the only person who knows all the details of what really went on is my husband. his advice was actually the best.

it was following my inner guidance that I dissolved the group. the reaction I got was interesting too. I was told by the one who was involved in all the drama ( that I thought was in alignment with me) that it was against my vibe to end the group. I am not even sure what that means. I told her that she should start her own group, that I she would be a way better facilitator that myself. since drama is not something I choose to create or participate in.

one of the unfortunate things is that I had to end my connections with a lot of the people involved in this group simply because I was feeling raw about the whole situation and a little hurt that not one of the members asked me if I was OK, or expressed any concern over what may be going on with me as to why I chose to let go of the group, except my close friends who were in on my decision. I think everyone who was involved in that group is a fabulous worthwhile and amazing person. but I had to follow my own inner guidance and do what was best for me. I take things to heart too much, and trying to soothe ruffled egos and peace keep is not something I love to do. In small doses yes. not in large ones. It was such a relief to me to be done with it. it was a huge lesson learned, and choosing to follow my inner guidance no matter what was the greatest gift I received out of all of it.

hugs to all

Shannon

communication and insecurities

Posted by Creative Goddess on August 20, 2010 in Intentions, forgiveness, lessons with No Comments

I have insecurities, like all of us. One of the ones I am working on is the struggle with all the information available to me as a business owner to weed out what works for me and what does not. at times I feel overwhelmed with all the resources available, and I have to shut down and walk away. too much information!!!

then comes the Ok, this looks like an opportunity for networking that may work for me. so after much analyzing I go for it. to find that the group or person I reached out to does not answer me back. frustrating… why yes!! why have they not answered me or even acknowledged that they received my request or message.

exactly like when you meet a new person, you think they are Interesting, so you send them a message stating that it was good to meet them and you admire what they are doing, and they NEVER answer back or acknowledge. rude I think. then you wonder, well maybe they did not get my message, or they simple think you are not cool enough or someone they wish to associate with. fair enough. would be nice though if you could know for sure. especially since sending more messages does border on stalking.

same with the marketing opportunities. when they do not answer is it because my business does not fit in with their parameters, or what. a nice thanks for your message, but we are not interested at this time would be great. takes the wondering out of it all. isn`t there a business etiquette that states something like that. it is challenging not to take it personally. considering what I do is not to everyones taste. a lot of people are intimidated and freaked out by it. it would not surprise me if that is why I do not receive some responses. that is their issue, and not mine.

so, since I do believe in the golden rule-treat everyone how you wish to be treated- I am going to answer every e-mail or request that I am not interested in pursuing with a thanks for the message, but no thank you. as I write this I sent off 5 e-mails to say thanks, but no thanks at this time.

it will be interesting to see how it all turns out. with facebook, twitter and linked in, we have the ability to send messages and make connections with a lot of people. this also means that some will ignore you. feels uncomfortable. yet, we probably do the same without realizing. I am going to consciously choose to be aware of that also. I have met people that I thought were interesting, tried to connect with them and was completely ignored. I have not figured out how to take that yet. still working on it.

same with people sending me messages that they want an appointment, so I go through my calender, send them some dates and then never hear back. a bit frustrating. I can solve that one though. I now only make appointments over the phone. I am running a business and my time is valuable. if you are serious, you will make the call, or send me an e-mail so I can call you. less wondering on my part. especially since my schedule does fill up quickly.

as I reread this post, I realize it does all boil down to communication. with all the different communication choices, what is the etiquette. ( the question mark is not working on my keyboard at the moment if you were wondering…) with our busy lives, we can forget or ignore communication requests. is it a subconscious thing or a conscious thing, or have we gotten lazy with etiquette. hmmmm…….something to ponder.

I am going to choose to believe that all communication requests that I send out and are not acknowledged or answered is because that person or group is not a right fit for me, and the universe is taking care of that for me. there is always a purpose. choosing to believe that they energies are not in alignment is a way nicer way to look at it than feeling insecure because someone is ignoring you. because really it is none of my business why they are not communicating with me, it is my business to feel good about me. no matter what.

I am entertained by the fact that this blog post started out with my frustrations on marketing from a business perspective and ended up with the personal perspective also. looking outside of myself for validation and confirmation that I am worthwhile. enough of that. I am also going to choose to rejoice in all the people that do communicate with me. there is a whole lot more that do not ignore me than there is that do. wahoo!!! and if I get really too much in my head about it, time to take a break and go ride my horse and look at my cows. they are always happy to communicate with me. no matter what. or listen to George Strait to take me to my happy place.

hugs to all

Shannon

me & Duke

Horses~dangers and pleasures

Posted by Creative Goddess on August 17, 2010 in flow of life, lessons, ranch life with 4 Comments

we are on the lookout for another horse. we have kids getting ready to ride a lot, and they both want to ride my horse. Duke. they are smart kids, because he is the best horse.

so, at swimming lessons we heard about a horse that was being re-homed because the girl did not have time to ride him. he is gentle, has been used in gymkana. 17 years old and a gelding. sounds really good.

the person who was coming to get him, changed their mind, now the horse was available again. friends of ours were going to be in the area and look at him, and let us know. they got busy and did not make it over there. so we went ourselves. well, he was very quiet, needed a big hoof trim, his feet and neck showed signs of founder, which is Ok. we are looking for a kids horse that will not work real hard so we can live with a little founder, after all the horse is free.

so, we load him up and take him home. my husband spent a lot of time trimming hooves, and Joe ( the horse) was not quite as gentle as we had been told. well, he is at a new place, with new people, and it did start raining so we will see in the next few days.

I went out the next morning to see how Joe was feeling and perhaps let him out with our 5 horses. our concern was that his feet not hurt him too much so he can run away if they picked on him a bit too much as they establish the pecking order. ( haha on us) as I went to check on Joe, I noticed that that quiet friendly demeanor was somewhat missing. he was prancing and arrogant. really??? I was not at all comfortable with this horse, and did not let my kids anywhere near him. my horses came around and they all met over the fence. Lots of squealing going on, which is the way of horses. My 5 then took off running away. ( 2 geldings and 3 mares)

I thought well Joe feels great, I will let him out, I did and got the hell out of the way, because this horse is a bit aggressive. MY 5 horses went to the furthest corner that they could get and hid in the bushes for a whole day. I had to go to swimming lessons and my plan was for them all to meet, mingle and establish who is the boss ( Bambi- my husbands rope horse) while we were away. did not happen. we had to go get my herd to mingle with Joe. they were smarter than us.

Joe is completely aggressive, thinks he is a stud and tried to take over the herd in a not nice way. he hunted the mares. my geldings had to be on their guard to protect the ladies. my horses did not get any rest. I kept an eye on the situation for a day or so. then we had a birthday party and part of the fun is loading up in the truck and looking at the cows, highland steer, Llama, and bulls. then we go and pet the horses and hand out apple treats and enjoy a lot of love. well, our horses were too stressed to visit us for apple treats. ( that has never happened) my husband walked into the herd with the bag to coax them to the kids waiting in the back of the truck to enjoy horsey love. as my horses were distracted by the bag of treats, Joe took full advantage and backed aggressively into the herd to kick and do damage, and yes my husband was standing right in the middle. NOT GOOD!!!

so, after the party ended and I could go spend some time out with the horses, I did. what I observed and felt did not sit right with me. my horses are very gentle and loving. the come up for petting even though they are keeping a wary eye out for a halter. ( I do hide it in my jacket) luckily they think I have gained weight, not hiding the halters. hee hee. as I stood out there one of my paint mares Sienna, really wanted to come for some love, but she couldn’t. she had to stay with her herd for protection. then I observed my other paint mare wanting to roll and get rid of some itches. she was having a hard time finding a place. took her an hour and as she was rolling Joe was trying to get to her. what he was planning to do to her while she was down, I am not sure, but I do know that it was not good. My old guy had to protect her. I have had him for 17 years, and we have been on a lot of adventures and around a lot of horses together, and I have never seen him have to do this. he was constantly on guard to protect his herd. as soon as I saw that, I sent my husband out to separate Joe. he is just too dangerous to my horses and to us. after Joe was removed from them, I did go find my herd and gave them treats and investigated their damages. a lot of bruises from being kicked. that broke my heart. they were back to their friendly give me love and apple treats selves, although they were back to being in the furthest corner away from Joe.

the horse we have here is not a gentle kids horse. he is aggressive,and thinks he is a stud and that makes him dangerous. I called the lady that I got Joe from. she had no idea that he was like that. the interesting part is how the stories change. now she admits that her daughter could not handle him, and was scared of him. she thought and she is correct that being experienced horse people we would be able to handle Joe. then upon further conversations the people she got Joe from did tell her that you do have to watch him around mares. she did not know what that meant, so disregarded that information. YIKES!!!

at this time I am waiting for her or the people she got Joe from to call me and let me know if they are coming to get him, or if I am selling him at the horse sale on Friday and making a donation to the food bank. after I buy my horses a bag of apple treats to say sorry.

I am happy to have my loving herd back, and hope they are catching up on rest and relaxation. I cannot wait for Joe to leave so we can ride our pretty horses again.

this whole situation has been interesting. I am glad that we met Joe and the family who had him. I am very glad they did not ride Joe around mares and get everyone into a dangerous situation. I am also glad that I was able to let them know the situation. what happens to Joe now, I am not sure.

I do hope that anyone reading this who is thinking of getting a horse for their family, please do your research! get someone you can trust and who understands horses and horse energy to help you. when you have a horse that you connect with, there is nothing like it. also get lessons for whoever it is that wants to ride the horse. lessons will save your life. they are many amazing teachers out there and it is important. horses have a lot of power and energy, if you do not know how they think or cannot connect to them, it could be very dangerous. horses are not big puppy dogs.

so, we shall see how this story ends and hope that everyone involved has learned valuable lessons, including us. whether Joe gets recycled Friday or goes to another place to live in solitude, I do know that it will work out how it is supposed to.

Soul Wisdom

Posted by Creative Goddess on July 15, 2010 in guidance, lessons with No Comments

I am feeling the weight of some “shoulds” right now. then I received Denise Linns newsletter and she spoke about “shoulds” too. link to her info at bottom of page.

we are constantly bombarded with information. In the hypnosis course I am taking it talks about overloading with information to get people to a state where they can be hypnotized and suggestible. isn’t that pretty much our daily existance. overloaded with information. do this, do that , this is the RIGHT way, that is the WRONG way. oh, now this other way is right. use this product, don’t use that product. eat this, do not eat that. etc….. no wonder we all feel such overwhelm.

it is a challenge to sort out all the messages. taking the time to meditate ( by simply being for a few minutes) is a definite help to sort out information. I learned from my hypnosis class, that a good nights sleep is very important also. going to sleep and getting enough helps sort out the messages and discard anything that is not of value.

it is no wonder we are looking for the answers outside ourselves, we are all in a sense hypnotized to not trust our own inner wisdom. that is backwards. trusting our inner or souls wisdom and then looking to the outside messages to see if they fit or not feels like a better way.

doing this does create a sense of responsibility and ownership of your life and your choices. if you are living the other way, you do have something or someone to blame when things do not go as you want them too. in fact, no one has any control or power over you unless you give it to them. makes you ponder doesn’t it?

one thing that I have learned is that all information has some form of bias. the beliefs of the person who passed on the info or created the info. same with my writing this blog. it is my opinion, and what I believe and may or may not be true for everyone. that is up to each individual to decide.

I can only decide what is right for me. I intend to listen to my own soul and go from that perspective. so what if I am wrong. I am here to learn, and really it cannot be wrong because every experience gives a valuable lesson. so, I release myself from the “shoulds” that are in my energy right now, and go forward with my personal truths. I invite you all to do the same. lots of hugs. Shannon

here is a link to Denise Linns newsletter Spit on the Buddha

rejection vs releasing

Posted by Creative Goddess on July 2, 2010 in Intentions, flow of life, lessons with 2 Comments

recently I went through my facebook page to delete old posts. I had no idea it would be so emotional. wow! as I deleted posts for the last couple of years, it felt like browsing through my life. some posts made me laugh, and some made me sad.

as I scrolled through my posts and saw messages from people I no longer have connections with, that made me sad. I miss them. even though I know we are not in vibrational alignment I still miss them. then comes the wondering… since I am missing them does that mean I should reach out and try to reconnect? well as soon as I use the word should I know it is not coming from the right place. It is coming from that rejection feeling. that part of us that really wants everyone to like us. even though we may have been the one to let go of the connection, it still feels like rejection, and it still hurts.

I had to take a step back and replay events and really tune into myself to see if I wanted the connection or I just wanted to feel better about being rejected or doing the rejecting. I realize that I am using the wrong word. rejection has a strong negative energy. the word release feels better. we both released an energy of a connection that did not feel right anymore. the energy of release feels less like a closed slammed locked door than the energy of rejection. release feels like it was done for the benefit of both parties. rejection feels one-sided.

so, as I go forward anytime I disconnect from someone or they disconnect from me, I will not take it personal or as a rejection. But as a release for both of us. releasing energies that are no longer working creates space for other energies that do work. so to everyone who has released me and to those I have released. THANK YOU!