there is a lot of chatting in some groups I enjoy about energy vampires, and setting boundaries. I wish to share a story about my experience with an energy that created chaos in my life. I am uncomfortable writing it because I do not want to make the energy vampire feel bad if she reads this. then I realized that is why they get away with being vampires. I also want to make clear that energy vampires are not horrible people, their energy is simply not in alignment with yours and it creates an energy drain or chaos. we all can be energy vampires depending on the situation.
I reconnected with someone this summer. I was so excited about it. then as the time drew near, I began to get uneasy. I decided it was due to being nervous about reconnecting. it has been over 20 years since we saw each other. she was around when I was growing up, and I adored her. having her a part of my family was great. I have a lot of wonderful memories and those I will cherish.
She does healing work also. we traded a session and gifts. while she was here she stayed in our camping trailer. it was a good visit. I was very happy to reconnect and catch up. after she left, I went into the camping trailer to clean. when I opened the bathroom door, I was psychically attacked. that was my first clue that something was up. BUT…. I ignored it. I did not want to believe that she was not in alignment with me. I smudged and got rid of that energy.
then a series of very strange events occurred. I told her about them and asked what is going on? she said she did not know. I persisted. the gifts she left for me, I had to get rid of. my family was being psychically attacked and I was unsure of why.
when I did get the answers and told her, she felt it was because we were destined to do great things together and some people in her world were trying to separate and sabotage us. I believed her, well, except the part about great things, I have been down that road with other people saying that very same thing and it is an ego energy that will bite you in the butt every time. I told her that I was not interested in that now. perhaps in 20 years. meaning never. I did believe that it was outside energies trying to mess with us. ( see how an energy vampire creates an us against them energy so that you stay aligned.)
that was another clue, but I so did not want to believe that she was an energy vampire for me and creating this chaos I was experiencing. I have no idea if she really believes that it was others causing the chaos or if she knows it was actually her. She did have someone else she tried to connect with me and that would have been even worse. this I did recognize and said no. I guess it does not matter what she believes or knows. see, I still want to make excuses for her.
what does matter is that there was energies created that affected myself and my family in a negative way. I was being pulled and sucked into some energies that were not good for me because of my talents and gifts. there was an opportunity to make a lot of money. I do not do this for the money and that is what saved me from being sucked in. I charge for what I do to simply create an energy exchange. so, when the money card was being flashed at me, I knew that it was time to step back and disconnect.
it was so crazy and chaotic that I had a very talented psychic pal call me up out of the blue to give me a reading because she could feel that there was chaos energies trying to derail and suck me in. twice.
this person from my past is an energy vampire. I am uncomfortable calling her that, because I do love her, but I have to choose my family and myself and cannot feed whatever it is going on with her.
we had broken off contact for a very long time. then yesterday morning I had movie-like scenes playing in my head of all the things that happened and how it created the chaos and I was told straight out that it was her doing it. she brought it all on, for her own personal reasons. then I had a very strange message on my phone from a number that did not recognize and it creeped me out. when I figured out it was from her, the messages that morning made so much sense. she called a couple more times, but I was outside or away. thanks Universe.
I did send her a text message this morning saying that I saw that she called and that the energies for us connecting are still not good. I noticed she unfriended me on facebook too. I am glad.
it was a huge learning situation, I saw my pattern of choosing not to believe, even when the chaos was happening, that she caused it. I still do not want to believe that. yet, when I saw her number on my call display, after I knew who it was, caused a strong snarling reaction. then a sigh and then I ever considered calling her back so she would not feel bad. self-sabatoge or what! I was willing to risk my energy and bringing chaos back into my families life so as to not make her feel bad. ridiculous right? yet we do it.
this is one pattern I am changing right now.
so for all of you experiencing draining energies and vampires in your life.
here is a cord cutting exercise I use all the time.
cord cutting:
sit down, feet flat on the floor, arms on your lap and say:
Archangel Michael, I call upon you now.
Please cut the cord of fear, obligation, or attachment with ______________________.
that have been blocking me or draining me in the past.
I am now willing to trade all the pain for peace.
It is done, it is done, it is done.
then I say this prayer to them.
may you be safe
may you be happy
may you be healthy
may you live life with ease.
wishing you all a Merry Christmas and a wonderful 2012.
hugs
Reverend Shannon